My life is lost...

listen to me and read this carefully. the answer is in this.

1. you have no idea how great it is that you are able to go without PMO for 25 days or 33 days. most people go for 10 days and relapse or 20 days and relapse. so the fact that you are able to go for one month tells me you have the will power and little control over your brain and mind. keep going at it. one day at a time. wake up and think...i only have to be sober for 24 hours. thats it.

2. you are compassionate and nice to women in real life because thats who you are. however you watching certain kind of porn does not define who you are. it is basically a manifest of porn and your mind wanting new things. first you want to watch teen porn then you want to watch lesbian then you want to watch threesome then you want to watch transwomen so on...your mind wants more and more and more once its gets used to certain kind of porn. now you are are the level of rough degrading porn...but that does not define who you are...when your brain goes...i need the porn now....it chooses the rough porn. thats it..just for that 10 min or 20 min you watch that porn....then you become yourself...

3. yes there is an escape...there is a cure. whichever city you are in...please go on google and search up sex addict anonymous or SAA or SA. there is a group i bet 100% just like alcoholic anonymous there is also one for addicts like us. most of the people there are recovering from porn and or porn affecting their lives.

please go there...they have a 12 step program that will cure. and make you back to where you are. listen to other peoples stories they share there...and this will make you want to quit forever....you will get phone numbers...so when you are about to watch...give them a call...they become your brothers and sisters....

it is the cure there. take it or leave it.

4. download surfblocker. it has the capability to block the entire internet for any amount of time. make sure you put a check mark beside BLOCK EVERYTHING...then go to addiction stopper...select the hours...1hr or 2 hr or 6 hrs..so on..then click start addiction stopper...it will literally block the entire internet for that amount of time...this way you can not watch porn...you can buy that or keep the trial version forever..it does not expire....make sure to click block everything before starting addiction stopper function.

hope you do what i said. main thing is SAA they will give you so many resources and make so many friends to help you. one can not do this alone.

 

To Naveen007, referencing Gnathan’s reply:
Naveen, I know and fully understand your situation from my own experience. Gnathan is spot-on. It sounds like you’re in a desperate spot and that’s the only place where you’ll perhaps listen to some concepts that may be quite different than the way you think and operate. If you’re drowning in the sea of addiction and a lifeboat comes along and someone throws you a life preserver, grab hold tightly with all the desperation of a dying man cuz this is who you are right now.

You have nothing to lose and everything to gain from following his suggestions. I think Gnathan will agree with me, that we’re giving you a type of guarantee here - a “shit-back” guarantee.... go to SAA (sex addicts anonymous) for 30 days, jump in and do everything they suggest. Depending on where you live and the number of meetings available, go to as many per week as possible. I’m in SAA in Los Angeles and there are many every day. Commit to going to 30 meetings in 30 days, or 1/day average. You acted out every day, so you can go to a meeting every day. If it’s a long drive, ask yourself how far you drove to act out? How much inconvenience did you put up with to do what you did in your disease? Well you can inconvenience yourself at least that much for your recovery. The guarantee is, if you give it your all for 30 days and you don’t like where you are at the end.... we’ll give you all your shit back and you can return to exactly where you are now. Right now you have no hope, nothing in your life you can trust to help you, so just trust that SAA works for all the guys there and if it can work for them, then if you do what the program and steps suggest, it will by necessity work for you. The program and steps come from AA, over 80 years of experience helping 100s of millions of alcoholics and addicts all over the world to get and stay clean.

I love SAA, it’s saved my life and given me hope for a new life beyond my wildest dreams. We learn to move from shame to grace. We use our worst experiences with addiction, share about the most despicable things we’ve done, and turn them into our greatest strengths.

I share this with you out of love and compassion. You don’t have to live like this anymore.

 

yes i agree with Beach and what he said.

When I first started in SAA, i thought omg i am not one of them. i am not an addict. these people are terrible...cheating on their wives...watching porn uncontrollably.....so i told myself...prove yourself...you are not addict. i went without watching porn for 3 days and relapsed. i tried hard...went 4 days and relapsed...i tried hard...2 days and relapsed. finally realized....1) yes i have a problem...yes I have an addiction...and yes I want to change.
I kept going to SAA....they all share their stories...you feel their pain....and because of that you will want to change...they will listen to you and will actually take the time out of their busy lives TO HELP YOU.
it really happens...thats what happens...
please go to regular meetings. listen...thats all. the only thing you ever have to do is go there...sit...and listen. you do not need to talk..but im sure after 3 or 4 meetings you will talk...because you will understand what a great please it is...let go of the stigma....i did...and so can you.
after 6 meetings they will give you big book that will work you through the steps to become sober..and people are there to help you.

worst case scenario, if you do not want to go...and if you ever hit rock bottom...please do remb this conversation me and beach said....SAA.....pick up the phone and meet someone and get invited in...because that is the cure.
whether you want to use it now..or when you actually hit rock bottom is your choice.

hope you stay sober bro! and btw....you going sober for 1 month is great!! keep up the good work!!

 

keep calm and relax. Sometime i have stressful, but it lost when i workout, workout good for health and your brain.