Hi there. I'm Colin from UK. I'm 42 yrs old, and sadly wasted most of my life MO myself senseless/ useless. Ironically I have never used porn, but the sight or snippet of a female has always been my trigger. It's long overdue time to stop this madness and build the rest of my life. One day at a time. Thanks for reading this!
Reached 10 days today. Benefits I am seeing so far is one thing,yet big for me; a clear conscience. Its great going to bed knowing I have " beat it" today. Otherwise I have been to ill to notice anything else. Finding it quite hard to think straight. Though I did notice some females tonight in supermarket, I didn't get the urge to MO. I have been trying to sort out one mess I created: church life. This weekend past, I have went back to my old church again. Which was nerve wrecking, long story. Also preparing to say goodbye to my addiction. It has been with me for decades, giving me an instant escape from my problems. Followed by a crash of course. But I need and must say farewell to it. Read this today Joel 2v12 " Therefore also now,saith the Lord, turn ye to me with ALL your heart..." That's all I have to journal today. I'm so exhausted with my head cold, neck spasm and eyes infection. Hope you are all doing well!!