Trying NoFap as last resource

Hello, first of all, I'm not an english speaker, hope you can understand me anyway.
I've been trying to quit porn and masturbation since I got a PIED when I was just 18 years old. It was challenging for me being so young and notice that I couldn't get an erection with my girlfriend.
That was the moment when I decided to look back to know what I've done all this years.
I started masturbating when I was about 13 years old and I haven't stopped since then.
Sometimes my day was just arriving from school and have 1 or 2 faps, do some sports and sleep. It felt good and I used little porn, didn't need it so much.
Lost my virginity when I was 16 with my girlfriend at that time, all OK, no complications. Still fapped at least couple of times a week.
I growed up and I was using more and more porn, pleasure was my goal, and the Internet gave me a hand to find what I needed.
So one day it happened, 18 and couldn't get an erection. It happened again the next time, and again, and again (different girls). I was horrified, with porn and masturbation everything seemed to be OK, but in real life more soft than a gummybear.
Went through the Internet to know wtf was going on and found NoFap, magic site where they say that was I was going through was normal and even better, it had a solution.
So I didn't create an account but I tried to follow the rules. I started without MO but I watched porn anyway. I know, I know, completely idiot. Started again, this time without porn and masturbation. It looked good till I reached day 8-10, and at this point I'm always so horny that I can't think straight. I can't focus in nothing for more than 10 minutes. The only thing that goes around my head is sex. So I failed again.

And this, over and over it's basically my story. I've been fighting this battle for almost 1 year and a half and it is worst than ever. I study chemical engineer and my college degree is in danger. I want to be happy with my girlfriend but I can't satisfy her without using sildenafil or something. I feel depressed and this is my request for help.
If you have any advices I will be pleased to know.
Sincerely
- A desperate man. (sorry for bad english again)

 

Thank You! I'm happy to see that there is a hope in this problem, and that I can find support here. I'll take your advice and read some of the porn addiction and rebooting forums to know how can I face this situation. Of course I'm aware of the negative effects porn can have on life, so that's why I'm afraid of not be able to handle my work in college.
I'll read success stories too, and write here if I feel weak or something.
Thank you again

 

Hi D.J. , my strategy is having good habits like sleep early, hit the gym, I delete my instagram and Snapchat (triggered my porn addiction so badly), and having a healthy relationship with my gf trying to love her and not seeing her like an object. I'll try to keep my mind busy and stay away from bad thoughts while I get through this.

 

K, Basically reaching day 2 and it feels like a year already. Had a great time at college studying and playing pool, didn't think in porn all day long, went to the gym and everything was going ok. But now I can't sleep and I'm horny AF, or maybe just missing porn. I'll stay strong. Any ways to sleep?

 

Day 3 fappers! (Lol) arrived home, long day at college again, had a physics exam and now I should be sleeping 'cause I got a differential equations exam on Friday. Now the interesting part, went to my best friend birthday party and it was full of hot girls. I was like daaammmnnnn however could handle myself. Missing fap, like today I feel like I could be fapping without P and would have an erection and orgasm, but i think masturbation in any way is against my goals. So I'll have to calm down and sleep tight.

 

Day 5 Here, I'm feeling pretty good! Well, horny like hell but at least in my head are women thoughts and no the "must watch porn" thoughts. Yesterday kinda cheated on my gf with my bestfriend but it was only one kiss (my bestfriend has a boyfriend too). I know, I should feel bad. It's a long story and I think nobody cares lol so I will continue to update my status of my fight against PMO. Keep it on going! You can do it if you think what is best for you in the future.

 

Day 6. I'm sick right now, got a flu. So I stayed at home doing homework and watching couple of movies. Today I felt urges of watching P but inmediately thought in something else. It's rough, I really miss the sensation but I think it's just my mind playing with me. Have a goal and I will not fail this time!

 

Day 7 and hardest day so far. I just want to mf jerk off. I don't even mind of using porn. I'm just desesperately horny and can't pretty much think straight right now. Thanks God I deleted my instagram and snapchat, or i would be masturbating just by looking pictures of hot girls. Also can't sleep. Give me strength.

 

goddammit. Relapse. I feel so angry, frustrated, depressed. I fucking hate myself right now. Day was going partially ok, I was horny, and as usually when I reach days 8-10 I just want to f anything and I want to go back to my old habits. It's the moment when I don't care anymore. But however things where going well without triggers. Went to college and then went to the movies with a couple of friends. When I arrived home, a girl that I used to F with called me and sent me nudes (she has a great body) and that was the moment when I couldn't hold it no more. I M without the nudes, like no P but I think I was obviously aroused bc of those images. 1 fap and that was it. And well, here I am. Sorry brothers
Sometimes I feel I'm never going to be out of this addiction.