Yule21

been close to a month since you've been on, I hope you're doing alright Yule

Pills don't solve the sadness.... they just push it aside for a while. Best thing is to come to terms with it and figure out a way to be happy again. Easier said than done, I know.

I'm on therapy no sure if it's working :c

I am very sorry, Yule. I don't know if free writing on paper, when you really feel down (and then on a periodic basis), is an option you would like to try. Sometimes I have so much spinning in my head I can't do anything anymore. Getting thoughts physically "out of me" and expressed on a page can separate them from you in a way.

Keep going you are a very strong person for going so far I am only on day 1 :/

Thanks, I'm trying my best, really :c

Not as strong and beautiful as you... Peace!

Yule, I'm also amazed by the great support I've received and it's also wonderful to give a shout out to others here, for accomplishments, to encourage in tough moments, etc. Congratulations on day 6!

Thank you <3

I'm glad to hear you're enjoying great music this afternoon! You may already listen to Pandora - its variety of channels is great! http://www.pandora.com/music/latin/salsa

Keep with it, cutie pie!!

Wonderful!! I hope you are enjoying participating on the forums (reading good words and passing along some of your own), and receiving strength from prayer and from the members here.

Thanks for the support <3

xD. please don't look at me like this :D

Yule, I can't imagine the sadness at that moment. And thank you for sharing here. I hope you got some good rest at last, and I hope both talking with them, and keeping connected with friends here, can help. I'm a good listener - I'd rather do that than give advice. Please feel free.

I feel less lonely, I'm not the only personas facing this, really thanks for this support :)

I just thought of writing a list - would you enjoy that too? - of the ways to affirm self, for example, by going easy on self at certain times (I can be a perfectionist), and looking for ways to express self creatively with writing, art, etc. which can be really affirming too.

I love writing novels but I drop it, I may return one day.

I want to be faithful and loyal to him, I have a lot of lovers and I also watch a lot of P, I want to marry him some day and I can't keep going with this crazy life.

I think it's because I love him

Ahh right on :) That is definitely good reasoning. Best of luck!

I think it's great to continue in the good fight for yourself, and for someone else dear to you, too, for added motivation. I am also doing this for me and a special someone. Your thoughts will be more and more for him instead of the opposition, as you continue. Best thoughts today!