Kikfif

Hi, I''m just reposting my thread from welcoming section to have my place in women's group

Today I'm on day 4 of my journey.

Hey hi hello

I'm 25yo Woman and new here.
When I''m reading some of Your threads I feel like it was me writing this.
Here's my story.
I started PMO when I was 14. Before this first final happened I was addicted to all this erotic stuff for years long.
Till now...
Then I meet someone and had my first time. I felt nothing. NOTHING.
And also next times. I tried everything.
I was so dissapointed, because sex in the movies was so nice... So PMO was myonly way to do me.
Here's one and only exception:
Once when I was 18 one guy I dated like fwb gave me some drugs to my drink to make me horny, and I experienced pleasure out of this world. Whole night full of orgasms all the way. And after this night I used to be able to orgasm from PIV. But only about one week long and again this same...

Now I need to reeboot from all my bad habits to have a pleasure from normal sex with my husband. He want to help me so I learned him how I touch myself when PMO, and He is doing this, but has no Idea that I'm fantasising so badly and repeating scenes from porn in my head over and over till II come. It takes a lot and feels soo robotic, mechanical like he isn't there with me. And looks stupid, nothing about sexy. No idea if you know what i mean now lol.
I already tried to reeboot but everytime I gave up, especially after sex without orgasm. It's happening again and again... I can't sleep and beeing online, encounter some sexy girl photo or reading erotic story and PMO.
Finally someone told me about this site...
So boys and girls I want to Greet every of You.
And I start my journey to be free.
My goal is to have clear pleasure with my man without porn fantasies in my head.

So let's see...