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InDeepDepression
New Fapstronaut, from In constant pain and guilt
- InDeepDepression was last seen:
- Jan 20, 2018
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About
- Location:
- In constant pain and guilt
- Occupation:
- Feeling shame for what I've done
I used to be my family's most loved child, and I was so innocent and happy and I looked promising and had a beautiful future ahead of me.
Until I got into pornography, which was my biggest mistake I could've possibly done at such a young age.
Slowly but surely I started getting worse in school and started to lose my ability to focus and study well. I couldn't have possibly known that this was because of porn, and I was never going to seeing how people praised it and almost nobody spoke against it or about any of its negative effects.
And I wish my journey into porn ended with me being worse at school and losing the ability to focus, infact I'd pay with a halved age to change time and have it stop at that.
I just defiled my innocence and did unspeakable things, and for some reason I turned full psychopath/sociopath and didn't give a single damn about what I've done. I just kept going until I pretty much stripped myself by my own self from any remaining bits of innocence I might have had.
Then recently my senses came back to me and now I realised what the hell I've been doing with my life for almost a decade.
Now neither my lack of morals nor pornography can help me forgive myself for the things I've done.
I can't believe this is my life now.Interact
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