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freedomwarrior
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freedomwarrior

Fapstronaut, Male, 60, from Texas

Checking back in after a long absence. Start a conversation to connect with me if you want to chat about recovery. Feb 14, 2022

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    1. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      Day 1 once again. Disappointing, but was yet one more wake up call and learning and growing opportunity.
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    2. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      Day 1...BIG WOOOP!!!
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    3. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      I failed today. Day 0. 8 weeks clean. 1 hour muddies things all up. Guess this will give me something to talk with my counselor about.
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      2. sean
        sean
        Get up and keep fighting. You know what you're fitting for and you know it's worthwhile. Continue to be brave and muster all the courage you can!!
        Apr 27, 2016
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      3. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        Thanks Sean. Appreciate the reminder. This is worthwhile for sure.
        Apr 28, 2016
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    4. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      I WANT PORN!!!
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      2. CUT
        CUT
        I know that feeling. I'm so hot right now I even got gay thoughts. It's kind of funny how I have to fight myself. This truly shows how much of a victim I still am, BUT I will not give in, therefore I'm not a real victim anymore :)
        Apr 26, 2016
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      3. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        I agree. I know I have to fight 2 not give in but my mind has been in Sex-ville all day and it is being difficult.
        Apr 26, 2016
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    5. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      Woke up happy I thought, but after a short time I am depressed and don't really give a shit about anything or anyone. Pray for me please.
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    6. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      Still standing but feeling very alone and deserted by wife and kids. They don't like it when I am in my funk, but they ignore me and do
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      2. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        nothing to help break the funk. I'm trying my best to respond healthy, but not easy.
        Apr 24, 2016
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      3. Lazarus Shuttlesworth
        Lazarus Shuttlesworth
        Stay strong!! And I love your avatar aha
        Apr 25, 2016
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    7. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      55 days, but man I came close to resetting today. My stress and anger and depression were all high today and I took a nap and started and
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      2. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        stopped and started and stopped and finally got up out of bed and left the room. Still mad and depressed.
        Apr 24, 2016
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      3. BushidoWarrior
        BushidoWarrior
        I'm very glad you pulled through. I'm sorry you are going through such a rough time; it happens to the best of us. It too shall pass. Try and keep your head up and let nothing beat you.
        Apr 24, 2016
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      4. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        thanks, but I am so on the verge. i really don't give a shit tonight, but am headed out for a 5 mile run and hoping that helps pull me out of this funk/depression. Thanks for caring.
        Apr 24, 2016
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    9. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      46 days, but who is counting???
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    12. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      Day 40. Hooray!!
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    13. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      Day 38 out of 14, 600. I am on the right track. Ask me about Ted Roberts and The Conquer Series.
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      3. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        Not sure how that could work, but I have thought about it.

        Other idea is personal professional counseling which is pretty awesome because you get to get solutions from a pro who has already heard about every struggle a teen has ever experienced. You cannot shock a counselor because they have heard it all.
        Apr 10, 2016
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      4. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        You can purchase the conquer series individually. Make sure to get the work book also. Check out their website to see where the series is being shown near you. Once you are 18 you should be able to join any group and not just a teen group. Let me know what you dig up.
        Apr 10, 2016
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      5. WoundedSoul
        WoundedSoul
        Alright I'll go check for a local counselor and look on their website and i'll let you know what i find out :) Thank you so much freedom for sharing the info!
        Apr 11, 2016
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    14. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      Been a successful 17 days. Celebrated my birthday yesterday with family, then a party in bed with the wife.
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      2. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        Our sex is so much better now. Loving it, but always aware.
        Mar 17, 2016
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      3. wi_ash
        wi_ash
        I read your response on the SSA thread. I just got back here after a long period of getting addicted again, hope we could help each other.
        Apr 6, 2016
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      4. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        wi, thanks for the contact. I am here to support you and will PM you.
        Apr 7, 2016
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    15. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      What I want is 100% freedom from sexual bondage. Not 80%. Not 95%. Not 99.9%. But 100% freedom! This is what I am praying to God for and
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      3. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        My decisions the day and night before have longer lasting consequences than yesterday. I will go to bed on time to get up on time and not be harried and hurried in the morning.
        Mar 10, 2016
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      4. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        Easily distracted this morning. another side effect of not enough sleep. No is the time to step away from nofap and focus on what I get a paycheck to do.
        Mar 10, 2016
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      5. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        Good night
        Mar 10, 2016
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    16. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      Conqueror Series video and men's group discussion Mon night. Counseling Tue night. I am very happy and more focused today, thankfully.
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    17. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      Thurs sucked. Fri morning I woke up refreshed and a new man, my post-orgasmic depression behind me.Good sex Fri night. Great sex Sat night.
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    18. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      Not getting to bed early enough. What do I do?
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      2. BushidoWarrior
        BushidoWarrior
        Me neither. It's a common struggle. The best advice I can offer is to find a way to block your technology, i.e. install internet filters which kick in at around 10pm or something.
        Mar 3, 2016
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    19. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      Much better today. Thank you. Started Conqueror Series again last night. Awesome group.
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    20. freedomwarrior
      freedomwarrior
      Exhausted and unhappy today. Masturbated this morning and don't feel at all guilty about it, but am really struggling with feelings today.
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      2. TakingTheSteps
        TakingTheSteps
        Sorry to hear that, dear! You'll be in my heart and prayers, whatever that means to you. <3 Stay strong and do something that brings you joy!
        Feb 29, 2016
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      3. freedomwarrior
        freedomwarrior
        thank you. Much appreciated.
        Feb 29, 2016
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      4. Decoder™
        Decoder™
        People around the world suffer with thier feelings. The matter is not solved bby this method. Bring them closer to your heart ask them their why's, they'll be 100% honest.
        Feb 29, 2016
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  • About

    Gender:
    Male
    Birthday:
    Mar 16, 1964 (Age: 60)
    Location:
    Texas
    Male, age 55. PMO since age 18. Was P free from 12/8/2010 until November 2014 (Hello-smart phone.) Married for 26 years with 3 kids high schools and college. Fantasied with gay porn for years. Had gay sex with strangers for 4 years, ending on 12/8/2010. Porn free most of the time now, and still struggle with unwanted SSA.

    In the Conqueror Series and Seven Pillars small group and am really pumped about getting to the root of my trauma, brokenness, and woundedness.

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    FW, especially supportive and encouraging to married men with SSA and the young who have the most to gain by quitting NOW! newbies: http://www.NoFap.org/forum/showthread.php?2402-Get-educated-get-tools-and-learn-to-love-withdrawals
    Hardmode 2/28-6/17/14, 109 days.
    PMO free 152 days 9/11/2015 - 2/9/2016

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