DBug

for a few hours. At least I didn't PMO - that's something I guess - hence the new count. Will edit the signature counters @home. Brainfog is back and we'll see how energy is tomorrow morning.

Uni starts in 10 days so I have the chance to make some progress again before it starts. Also think about telling someone in real life. It might help and I trust them. Now enough self-loathing and back on the horse :)

Also yesterday afternoon I took a nap and when I awoke I hat quite the nice "morning"-wood! About 90-95% - it was awesome - strongest morning boner since probably ever.

That's a good thing, it'll keep you busy for the next few days.

Good luck

Thanks!

... he really overreacted. And now I really don't know what to do tbh. I already apologized but (and this is what really annoys me) he still completely ignores me on PMs and group chats like a f***ing 4-y.o. !? Srsly what is this? Kindergarden!? He even refused to shake my hand what I value very much as a basic sign of courtesy. I really don't get people.

I decided I'll try once more in person after my holiday but if he still ignores me then I will be out of ideas... This is just ridiculous - all that for a stupid remark on my behalf.

That guy ain't worth. Don't waste ur time on him.

What I do fear is a strong trigger since I avoided them all successfully but what if I find one right before my nose one time? Anyway thank you for the encouraging message again :)

Anytime man. Well we can't live with the fear that one day this strong trigger pops up and we can't control it so we'll give up. We're training ourselves today to face any urging situation in the future cause we'll most definitely end up facing a few of them at least.
So stay strong hoping when that day comes, u'll stand victorious.

Well "fear" was probably an exaggeration. I was just thinking about it.
I certainly won't give up and neither will you ;)

Me too but I just keep it around as a anti-screw up prevention tool.. good job on getting to 39! :)

Ah that's actually a good idea!
Thanks! I too congratulate you on your 10th day! Keep it going and may the force be with you ;)

Haha thank you and you too :)

Srsly I didn't have sex in 3 (edit) years now but I never felt so horny as I do now... PMO what did you do to me?!... Also fuck the fucking flatline.

Exercise is a miracle, trust me. If i don't do that even for one day, I would have such low energy too. Long sleep works with good exercise.

Thx DBug for commenting on my status. I can see we're on the same day. U gotta ignore the pains to make them quiet. Just get urself busy doing some routine stuff like learn programming or anything u really like spending ur time on which could also be very beneficial for ur future.
Keep it going mate!

My pleasure! It is a bit better today. I'm going out with friends again later today so that will keep my mind off things. Programming is a good idea! I still have arduinos around I could have some fun with. Thanks for th input ;)
You too keep it going!

Wow the joint pain is still really annoying and weird! It's only in the hand-finger & finger joints and only a bit inconvenient except for my left thumb that actually hurts!

Visiting some friends at the evening and I'm sure I wont feel it after two beers but it's still annoying until then...

I know your situation kinda sucks, but keep strong. You got this!

Thank you! I really needed that!...
You too stay strong!