Do it for the sake of non contact. If you want to talk to someone, you should always do what you feel is right to respect not only yourself
My family obviously don't want me to call her but I agreed that I still needed some time to think about things.i also didn't want to
Hopeless. It's just a really confusing time for me and I am still stuck in a perpetual loop of 'should I, shouldn't I?'
Bit sometimes, your relationship is just too far gone down a path it can't return to find a better way and I know that is why I was feeling
And I told her the news. I didn't want to seem weak and bow to my own pressure to stay. I really love her still. At home when I think of her
Who I am and what my lifestyle is going to look like. I have felt like a piece of me was torn out and left behind when we got home
If I relapse(d) then nothing was there for me to look forward to and continue moving forward towards goal-wise. I have to find out
You can do NoFap if you have purpose in your life and you know yourself and what you like. You will find an uphill struggle attempting
Being without a job for close to 7 months is hard. I wasn't growing. We were constantly battling. It was exhausting. No ambition, or goals.
One of my best friends had called me to ask me how I was doing as he was the one who had initially encouraged me to think about my situation
I spent time throughout yesterday at my kid cousin's bday party. I texted her in the morning and she called me. After we had been texting.
But there was not enough love to last the tough times. We were living together, bit we weren't living as you do when you're in love.
My recreation as a man and closing the chapter on my codependence on my partner and parents/family made me stronger than I had ever been
She's helped me learn from my mistakes as was the one who lead me to NoFap. I had given up on being a good person
Because this feeling's not going away. I want to tell her it's okay. But I know deep down, it wasn't true. I have to be honest going forth
I am staring into the abyss of an underwater shelf. This is where my future lies. Unknown. Full of terror and I just want to vomit.