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Post published by pman22

Hello all,

I've been saved a little over a year now. Ever since I found Christ, life has been absolutely amazing. I've been struggling with porn and masturbation since I was 12 years old. At the time, I had no idea it was "really" a sin. Only when I became saved did god convict me.

I will go 2 weeks and be strong, then fall. Another 2 weeks, then fall. Sometimes when I fall, it will last weeks before I can get myself back on my feet. I just want to be done with this sin.

Specifically now I'm addicted to video chat pornography. So I will watch a girl masturbate, and she watches me masturbate. Afterwards, I feel absolutely horrible. I feel like it is even a worse sin and I just feel so ashamed of myself. That guilt makes me feel like giving up, but I know I can't get over this without god. I just don't want to miss out on what he has for me because of my continued sins.

I really want to stop this now as I just did it again and I want this to be my final time. I'm looking for strategies that can help me to stop before I commit this sin when the feelings come up. Ways to break my addiction and maybe some prayers I should pray for gods mercy. I just feel really terrible now, because this makes me feel so hypocritical in my walk with Christ.

Thank you in advance, and god bless!!
pman22 more_vert
pman22
@RockyBalboa97 Thank you so much! I watched a really great video by Desiring God, and I'm moving forward and I'm going to be moving forward better direction. Reading Hebrews also helped a lot
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Mystery Man more_vert
Mystery Man
Hey brother a lot of people have said having accountability software on your devices has done wonders. Would you look at this as a possible option? Accountability2you is a good one
Tao Jones more_vert
Tao Jones
Welcome! Really glad you are here. Two things: 1) Get an AP or three and start checking in with them every single day. 2) Cut off your access to P, whatever it takes. Accountability software is a good option (one I use), but the important thing is to stop the PMO, no matter what. If we can be of support to you, please reach out here any time! I am praying for you and cheering you on to new life in Christ!
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pman22
@Mystery Man Hey man. I have looked at those before, only problem is that they slow my internet down to the point where I can't do what I need to do for work :(. I was good since this post but I fell again today to pornography on my phone. Getting back into Hebrews though, and I know I will be delievered! Still has been good progress so far! God bless
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pman22
@Tao Jones thank you so much! I have been feeling much better and more motivated. Ever since that post, today was the first day I fell to P. However, it was NOT the same way or to the extend of how it was when I wrote that last post. I am feeling very inspired and I prayed that I am giving it all to Christ, for I know I can not do it on my own. Thank you for the prayers
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Tao Jones more_vert
Tao Jones
I have used A2U for a few years, and I can report that it does not affect Internet speed or browser performance in any way whatsoever. Might be worth a look, @pman22 .
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