Post published by Coffeetopian

Hello. I haven't been the most active poster on this forum but I felt like I've finally reached a point where my unattended desire for PMO has finally subsided (My counter is not accurate but I stopped counting after day 40)

However, my daily struggle and adversity with finance and singlehood remains. As many of you good Christians (especially those who live on the West Coast dealing with its ridiculous living cost) can attest that living as Christians may come with worry that we may not be able to establish a wholesome relationship. Be it lack of time or availability of potential mates within our own surrounding, we unconsciously feel that establishing a relationship only becomes harder as the time goes by. For the longest time, I've denied myself of relationships because of my previous PMO habits destroyed my confidence of maintaining it. All those hours I could've used for self-improvement through learning how to love God were lost to indulging in self-love. God knows how much of my opportunities for relationships were lost during those times. Needless to say finding online pornography is, without a doubt, one of my biggest regrets in life.

Thankfully I've found myself a good church in my area, albeit nearly all of the members are at least a generation above my age. I do my very best to maintain a healthy habit all the while balancing my work hours. Despite my goal to establish a loving family still feels unattainable, all these recent improvements I've made couldn't have been done had I not eliminated my porn cravings. Though I'm not certain what life will throw at me next, what I do have confidence in is that I will no longer fall in that same pit. So I thank this forum for letting me blabber on this post as well as your endless supply of posts that are much more encouraging than you might give credit for.

Let us not tire in doing good, brothers! We will reap our God-given harvest if we do not give up.