Feel so alone after I relapsed at day 50.

First of all, you have to congratulate yourself on the 50 days. Put it this way - you've PMO'd once in the past two months... That's 6-7 times a year. Pretty crazy when you compare it to a daily PMO routine, right?

Second of all, the feelings of shame come on fixating on your streak. Your streak should be secondary; if you are making progress (whether that be new hobbies, less procrastination, more social) it doesn't matter if you achieved it on Day 7 or Day 356.

If you are keeping up with your new habits - exercise, diet, reading (or whichever you picked up) - then you've got nothing to worry about.

 

You know you gained more then you have lost in these 50 days and you know there is much to gain. Keep gaining.

 

You didn't relapse. You slipped. If you've returned to PMOing like you used to, then that's a relapse. If you only did it this one time, you slipped. Slipping is quite normal, you shouldn't beat yourself up about it.

50 days of sobriety is a good milestone. Make it a goal to surpass that.

Lastly, just pick yourself up and get back in the saddle. Your goal is to quit PMOing, correct? So, as long as you reach your goal, why does it matter how and when you reach it?

 

I'm confused "precum" is involuntary it happens naturally. If you didn't make it happen how is that a relapse? Did you make it happen?Did you PMO? I feel your pain and will support you.

 

Sorry that happened man. We fall down but we get up. Sending you strenght

 

Feeling alone is very very normal in your situation. You are a real warrior though, and I believe in you. How are you now? Please, feel free to share.

 

yeah 50 days is something tog be proud of... i envy you for reach those 50 days , but you slipped up like you said nothing to worry about dust it off and like someone stated above look at passing those 50 days as your motivation.

 

Ok, thats definitely not counted as a relapse. You didnt orgasm. You'll get precum when you see something arousing. Thats fine, thats not masturbation. Thats just a signal to you that you need to stop whatever you are watching. You didnt relapse. Keep going strong. Avoid triggers in the future as much as you can.