[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

At Day 15, and I feel awesome.

 

Day 7, getting some strong morning wood which is always a good sign of healing.

 

Yes, you are right. Thanks man.

 

14/90
Almost 2 weeks
Just a reminder that
If I quit now, I will soon be back to where I started. And when I started, I was desperately wishing to be where I am now.

 

Day 10, Day 11

 

Check-in day 9!

 

6/90

 

Day 8/90!

 

3/90. Keep going. Just say no now to PMO and yes to literary anything else, that's it really

 

Duuude! I’m so jelly but I’m a gud way

 

Day 60/90

 

Day 31/90

 

Day 23 of 90
August 4, 2019 | Sunday

Regaining my focus and concentration on studying for hours

 

day 0...next stop at day 90...

 

1 day no PMO
8 days minimal sugar
11 days no alcohol
34 days no social media
0 days Rosary. Started it but never finished.

I have always believed that girls I am attracted to would not want to have anything to do with me. I realised this yesterday. I said "What the bleep?!" in a very disgusted way. I still do. It makes me mad. I have talked about my close ones before and this is another thing they caused. I am quite upset. Why would a girl who I am attracted to not want to be with me? Maybe they did not want to be with that mentally ill man who did not believe he was good enough. That is not me. That is a product of hatred from close ones. I am becoming victorious over the emotional beatdowns from my mom, dad and brother. I am becoming healthy. I am defeating this PMO disease. To heck with them who made me feel so small and worthless.

 

Day 5/90
85 days to go.

 

64/90
Slow but sure
Realizing that 90 days is to heal the body

 

Buh the real journey is a life long commitment to stay away from porn

 

8/4/2019. Today I relapsed. The past few days have been really hard for me since the breakup with my girlfriend. I was very sad and depressed and heat broken, my self-confidence was all gone. I had trouble eating and sleeping, and I was living like dead. I felt so lonely and worthless, and since because I didn't do anything wrong in the relationship I always treated her nicely. So I was shocked and confused, but I just couldn't get mad at her because I loved her and I respect her. The cause of this relapse I sort of gave up on myself, I looked in the mirror and I just got a haircut and I felt really bad and the urges came this time I didn't have the motivation and energy to fight it. I started edging. I was really depressed and I knew I would be more after but after hours of fighting the urges that came in waves, I lost control. I don't know what to do guys ever since the breakup I didn't feel the motivation to continue going and I know i need to get myself together but man it's really hard. I feel terrible of how i am I'm a fucking addict. I was searching for a short lasting moment of dopamine high to bring me out of depression but yeah I feel even worse now. sighhh

 

Been there, bro! It sucks but don't worry, the depression will pass with time. In the mean time, keep yourself busy, social with friends and active in exercise is the key. You've got this!