Feeling at a loss..

Hey Ladies and Gentleman. This is just a post that I'm just feeling kind of like a loss at life right now. Mainly as if I'm going no where, but trying to enjoy things the best I can. It's been difficult this past year as many of my friends and family members are all getting married and either taken in a relationship. Not to mention any woman I try to talk to at work is of course you know...In a relationship. I'm just feeling as this is why I still masturbate to escape reality and society.

I've been to collage of course, but I eventually dropped out about 9 years ago. I'm 27 and will be 28 in September. I'm Still living with my parents and just working full time. I recently bought a new car and I have to pay a monthly payment for about 4 years along with rent. Adding that up now is basically my whole entire check being taken away each week. Now I just feel as if I'm screwed and maybe not leading up to living on my own or how others look at me for still living with my parents.

I know I shouldn't care about what other people think, but its more of what I feel inside for myself and that I've just sucked myself inside a hole. Unless I move up in my job and deal with more stress along with working 10 hours and the day away. I know work is work, but some times I just feel as if I'm wasting my life away and not enjoying it to the full. I feel I am a young attractive guy and worth more then what I am. I feel I have so much more potential and can achieve. But I'm struggling with life right as it feels like.

Right now things have been a little better I met another woman online and she really likes me and I'm enjoying days more when I'm off. But I'm just struggling on moving forward I guess. Sorry this is a little long Ladies and Gentleman but this loss for life has just been felt a little to long, even though things are a little bit better..

 

Yeah I don't understand why woman always go for the bad guys. My first girlfriend got made at me because I wouldn't be the look out driver just in case something happened when she and her friends tepeed someones house. I also don't understand why Woman go off and have kids right off the bat and then later complain about how hard it is..