HOCD PMO ADDICTION HARDCORE

I’m a busboy at a wing place

 

this cracked me up, I’ve been working since I was 13 doing side jobs. Around 15 I hade facial hair, enough for me to work for a 3rd part construction place that paid under the table. From 16 I worked and saved most of my money I spent it on weed, my skate bored and gym equipment. A side note I’ve played a hand full of sports. Track, foot ball, and wrestling. I played like 1 month of baseball but I didn’t like it.

 

yes sir I’m felling great, I also bought my 1st car and got it running today

 

So 9 days off, today is day 21. I think Ive flatlined I’ve been really over emotional and down lately but even worse than before. I wanna find another job and find joy in my life once more, I wanna make more money, I want to get to my 90 days, and most importantly I wanna feel lively once again. Goodnight all of you

 

DAY25: it’s been good so far but lately I really have no energy for anything. Idk if it’s a “flatline” or I’m just living life carefree. Regardless it’s not that bad. Hope you guys are doing good too.

 

Today would’ve been day 28. But unfortunately I relapsed, I’m disappointed but it is what it is. I am proud of my self and I plan on coming back stronger
Love you all

 

So since Wednesday I’ve relapsed twice and I’m not proud. I’m so sick of this I don’t wanna be a pawn to this HOCD and pmo addiction. Tomorrow will start day one and I plan on getting the full 30 days good luck to all.

 

Just came back to this post it’s been a while huh I’m 21 now and been in a committed relationship for about 4.5 years you can all do we all can. Working at a pawn shop getting my jewelers license. I no longer really deal with anymore symptoms have fun cheers