Another sissy/trans porn victim TRIGGERS

Hey everybody.
I was exsposed to porn around 10 when I found one of my dad's magazines lying out in the bathroom. I developed an incredibly strong panty fetish and a problematic masturbation practice, returning to that magazine several times a day.
Fast forward to age 14 and I was exposed to crossdresser and porn because someone forgot to close the browser on my local library's computer and was instantly hooked. My panty fetish was taken to new heights, and I started using stolen pairs to M when on a binge, which was every night. I started Ming in public places whenever I felt it was safe enough, but that added risk made Ming more and more kinky and I started doing it more frequently. This is behavior has posed massive problems for me over the years and I want to control these urges and definitely want to stop watching sissy/cd/trans porn because I want to be able to notice when girls check me out in public and I'm sick of the anxiety and shame I feel every time I M. The porn has escelated to sexting with sissies, but it doesn't give me the same thrill at all and in fact usually turns me off, but I've tried it multiple times. Looking for any and all help and support.

 

Thanks Roady. It feels good to talk about this problem with people that understand what I'm going through. I don't feel like I'm the only kne with this problem anymore.