Help please am I broken?

Edging needs to stop @horny nerd! It has a worse effect on your brain than PMO, where you just get on with it and finish.

Fantasizing about females is like having your own personal porn channel running in your mind. That is harming you.

If you cannot control your use of Instagram and YouTube etc, you must delete them. You need to find other things to do. Twerking and booty pics (and bikini babes) are all p/subs. They can be just as damaging to your recovery as porn itself.

A dream journal is fine. Just do it in a notepad rather than via an app. Then there will be no temptation to masturbate.

 

Notepad is a good idea.
Lay off touching yourself. I know it's hard to do. But try every time your wanting to you touch your meat touch your nipple. It works for me.
Try to control your mind. Don't fantasize. Maybe try not to spend excess time in bed

 

The other guys are so right! Its all about your behaviour, you need to replace those habits with new ones. I have been doing this for two years now and I have relapsed many times but I learn from it and keep moving forward. Edging is definitely the worst thing to do though because you are producing that thrill, the ejaculation is just the end of the process, you are still practising the worst part.

Toxic people can be the worst. I keep only the people I trust and who are good for me close, I keep destructive people away as they cause great influence.

Make your bed a place to sleep and to rest, the more you watch vids and masturbate in bed it becomes another place to get your fix. Create a sanctuary away from temptation and yeah I agree a note pad you can write in is a great idea!

Keep strong brother! 2019 will be your year!

 

I believe you need some purpose in your life. If you think only of not eating or even touching a candy you will eventually consume the candy.

Try to think of some hobby, I do not believe you are interested only in watching YT and IG. They can be the very powerful triggers.

Maybe some sport? Maybe you can act as a volunteer somewhere. You can meet new people there, make some new friends.

For me idle time is the shortest route to relapse.

Stay strong and motivated!

 

Bro your just a normal teenage guy. Relationships with others is the best thing for you. I got you buddy reach out when you need support. Wearing loose briefs to bed is better than boxers. You start 2019 freash in my book bro!

 

Fasting helps me as well. I think meditating is good for your mind. Are you sure your friends have pulled away from you or the other way around? Maintaining friendships isn't easy as a teenager. It's easy to make friends but harder to keep them. Reach out to us in the Nofap community when you feel lonley. We will be here for you buddy

 

I used kratom also for a while, but after a while my kidneys really hurt. I was very enthusiastic about kratom, now i would stay far away from it, it's really harmful.
I was so messed up for a long time (problems, addictions, unconscious impulsive living), that i lost most of my friends. I hope in 2019 my social life may improve too.
Just keep focussing on life goals, getting healthy & strong. I find this community very helpful, inspiring and full of goodness. Let's improve our lives day by day bro, while at the same time being grateful for what we already have.

 

Are you serious here? You must build a proper foundation of your life. What if the internet will be shut down one day. What your day is going to look like??

 

Time to build something solid as you are on the very thin ice here.

 

Yeah I understand your situation. I was like that too at 15. The problem was that I had lost all my friends from school and they were the only friends I basically had. So I was still going to school and just standing there with the people I knew. I wasn't hanging out with them on my free time, at that point they were just basically my school mates. We had breaks between classes and those were so painful, I was just waiting for the class to start. At the start of my final year, I felt very alone and was dreading on the fact that I have to spend another year there. When it finally ended 10 months later, we graduated and I left without saying a word to anyone. That was 2.5 years ago. I went to what they call high school and made some new friends here and there, but no close relationships. I had a lot of issues in my life, social anxiety etc. Currently it's my final year in this school and saying a lot has changed would be an understatement. I'm really focused on building my social circle now, I wish you will try to do the same thing at a younger age. The way out of a situation like yours is to meet new people, and you can't really do that in your current school, I understand. You have to seek outside your school, maybe a hobby.

 

What things from the past to you think about? Sounds to me like touching your penis is an issue. Only touch in the bathroom and do not allow yourself internet access in the bathroom.
Your edging is a real problem. Contact your AP when you start to edge. Helps a lot buddy. Get outside exercise and smile