Newbie Need You!

I am very unsecure about all of this. I am a newbie that stumbled upon your site and felt a strong urge to end this slavery. I am doing what they said: introduce yourself:
57 male, married 39 years, 4 children and 2 grandchildren. Bipolar life has been rough especially for my entourage. Non smoker. 'Sober' for the last 15 years, this has helped tremendously in curtailing my manias and hypersexuality. Last fall I've had worst depression since being sober. I have my tools to manage both bipolar illness and fibromyalgia, but bouts of all out hypersexuality (P,M, strip, prost, infidelity etc) are over and beyond my control. I need you. I need this tool. First, for my own sake (culpability has often brought me to suicide attempts and numerous hospitalizations) and for my wife's sake, a real angel to have stayed with me.

Mahog

 

Thank you,

Today I have exercised, brought my laptop in the same room as my wife's, came clean with (that's not easy for her once again), I am limiting my general internet use and with specific intent before I do use it, have deleted tv programs with P subs. One step at a time.

Good luck to you too xagell.

nb Somewhere I read someone was lacking motivation and was told to write down everything single thing he has done and show it to his family. This visual imagery gave me the incentive to get going because it would not be very nice and I would be pretty darn ashamed!

 

thanks xagell,

good luck to you too.

hang in there, one day at a time.

Mahog

 

Sex with wife

I have been abstinent with my wife since I told her. We discussed at great length yesterday how this is hurting her real bad. I think we will be resuming our sex life but we both need time. For me to see her for who she really is and for her to begin trusting me again with kind of a Damocles sword over me.

I'm not sleeping well at the moment but hanging in there. I see this as an opportunity to grow and a life changing event for the much better.

Mahog

 

Thank you Aryan, I will certainly get on reading, it takes me awhile because in the same breatdth I am also curtailing my overall internet. I am glad to see that you are on a new road as I am.

Mahog