Age 29, past 30 day mark: Super stressed...

Hey guys,

Just want to say to the NoFap collective: Thank you.

Some of the most intense (and justified) stress I've ever felt in my life is compounding right now....and I still haven't masterbated, watched porn or orgasmed in over a month now. It hasn't been easy, my sleep is erratic, I feel pretty messed up.

My career and project I'm involved in is in limbo, has been for a year now....I'm fiscally tied to it and my ROI was supposed to be a few months ago....my ex and I recently connected and expressed how we missed each other and I want her back but kind of accidentally blew it and I'm at work right now absolutely devastated I can barely function. And, she's living in Vegas where I've wanted to live for a long time (and was supposed to by now with this project).

It is an EXTREME amount of stress, confusion and despair...and I'm feeling every potent drop of it. But I HAVE NOT given in to mo/pmo. Not once.

I cry almost every day, I have no energy, may have kissed one of my best friends good bye and my financial future hangs in the wind....it's a lot. I'm heart broken and scared. I just want to say thanks for the support (crying as I type this).

Please keep me in your thoughts, as you are in mine.

Sincerely,
-Sam

 

Thanks man, thank you. Yes it is. I think it will pay off soon. Actually just put in my two weeks and decided to get out to Vegas no matter what to help make this happen.

 

Thank you man

 

Thanks for the support, I've since relapsed and now I know what the chaser effect and brain fog is like. Brutal. I haven't made amends with my ex, but I put in my two weeks at work and am going to make it to Vegas by the end of the month. Time to jump.