Post acute withdrawal and my symptoms. Can you relate?

My libido returned for more than a few days now but dont know if it would persist or not.

 

No libido but my memory is slowly improving

 

Maybe am I’m flatline. Actually I think I am been in it ever since day 6, so no real urges

 

Has anyone else noticed way better dream recall? This is the one thing that has absolutely convinced me of how dangerous porn/masturbation really is. Once you realize it has affected your sleep, you know it's really, really bad.

 

I have really vivid dreams now and again. I do dream a lot more in general and also my sleep is a lot better. I had a rough patch of sleep the beginning this month. There was one weekend where I didn't even get a sleep for two days in a row and two-three hours sleep the next day.

 

I think real kicking libido must be one of the last things that comes back to you when you are recovered from PAWS.

 

Can you tell us How was your PMO habit. How old are you(approximately and how many years you used how intense and etc,...) ?

 

Started PMO age 13. Use increased by 14/15 at least once a day if I can remember 16-19 was three times a day, 19-25 started nofap many streaks but ultimately relapsed many, many times. I only see benefits consistently when not using porn at all. Im 25

 

It seems like I did the damage when I was 16-19 and then inevitably kept myself in it by relapsing ever since.

 

It seems we have nearly same stories, but i Didn’t pmo 3 times per day for extended time like 3 years,

 

Now how is your motivation, concentration, decision making and having and pursuing Your goals ?

 

Slowly things are getting better mate. Don't expect results overnight with this because that ain't the case. I'd say for the first 9-11 months was constant nagging feeling of shit. I had head tension for over 340 days mate. That now has cleared for the time being or is much less noticeable. Concentration and focous a little bit better but not enough to read a book and get distracted. Decision making has been fucking terrible over the years can't really never had no confidence with it i'll let you know when that gets better. I don't know what my goals or ambitions are really I feel i'm going through an identity crisis at the moment. All I know is i'd like to be successful financially and happy and secure.

 

What else are you doing to feel better ? Like cold showers meditating or fasting running etc.

 

Yea doing all of that. I used to be so bad I couldn't focus to meditate. I do IF now, eat good healthy meals. I like my showers lukewarm. You can't put a set date on this your body will recover when it recovers..

 

Thx for your responses, but this flatline state is good place to make life changes and also what i like about some of things I mentioned is that they let time to pass, time needed for healing.

 

Ah and one more question, how was your sessions? a 5 minute session or more like 15 or even an hour ? What about escalation?

 

Five to 15 minutes sessions, could never go hours with porn. I think with me it was more the orgasm than the porn. Escalated to some weird shit, nothing dark but weird nonetheless.

 

Yeah man it seems it's gonna be this way.

 

Wow I feel your pain with the head pressure as I'm dealing with it right now. Some days it goes smooth and other days it's like someone digging a hole w/ a shovel inside your head.

 

Has anybody ever noticed one moment you seem fit w/ mental clarity like a soldier and the next you seem gaining weight and sluggish. Like that shit playing Marco Polo with you. Sometimes I feel exposed when women attracted to me especially at the workplace and minutes or hours later you become depressed and no sign of muscles.