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[enormous] Hello I'm new here and I'm starting right away

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by enormous, Jan 10, 2015.

  1. Jan 10, 2015 #1
    enormous

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    Hi,

    I'm 36 and masturbated probably an average of 2 times a day since I was 14.
    I had my first girlfriend when I was 19.
    I'm watching porn since I'm 22.

    I have a good sex life, with relatively long term polyamourous relationships (1 to 5 years), and some threesomes and orgies.

    Today I can feel my porn addiction is getting out of control. The more I fap, the "stronger" porn I need next time.

    I have 2 female partners and I don't have ED yet but I can feel a drop in my sexual drive towards my partners and even towards porn, and I feel it's related to porn. I've read a fair bit of the book "Your brain on porn" which convinced me to start the nofap challenge.

    I deleted all my porn and configured openDNS on my 3 laptops, and BlockIt on my android phone.
    I erased backups on all the old disks in the drawer. All seven of them.
    Took me the whole afternoon but I feel relieved I did.

    I feel like I'm going to fight an invisible enemy and it kinda scares me.
    I feel there is no going back.
    I am determined and won't give up.

    Let's start this challenge.
     
    enormous, Jan 10, 2015
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  2. Jan 10, 2015 #2
    BallsOfBlue

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    Make it happen!
     
    BallsOfBlue, Jan 10, 2015
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  3. Jan 11, 2015 #3
    enormous

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    Will do!

    Thank you!

    By the way I'm looking for an accountability partner, if you don't have one maybe we could associate.
     
    enormous, Jan 11, 2015
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  4. Jan 11, 2015 #4
    enormous

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  5. Jan 2, 2020 #5
    enormous

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    Rebooted in 2015. No PMO except MO from my GF at the time. Successfully completed whole 2015 year (15 months total) without P at the time. I thought that porn addiction was a thing of the past. But I relapsed, enjoyed fresh P sensations for several years.

    Now in 2020 P addiction is getting out of hands again. Less and less sensations for more and more violent content, yada yada yada.

    I had a new girlfriend and did tried some escorts recently : I had ED and it felt awkward. My brain needs rewiring away from porn.

    So I'm rebooting again. Starting now. Porn only because I don't feel I can do hard mode PMO and I don't have any GF so I can't rely consistently on that.

    My new journal :
    https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/2020-p-reboot-journal.262659/

    Wish me luck!
     
    Last edited: Jan 3, 2020
    enormous, Jan 2, 2020
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  6. Jan 2, 2020 #6
    Azzure

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    Best of luck mate! You're a fighter by the sounds of it. I think 2020 will be a great year for you!
     
    Azzure, Jan 2, 2020
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  7. Jan 2, 2020 #7
    enormous

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    Thank you for your kind support !
     
    enormous, Jan 2, 2020
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