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AGE 33, quit for 30 days, MET LOVE OF MY LIFE, relapsed, but starting again

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Bartman, Feb 18, 2016.

  1. Bartman

    Bartman New Fapstronaut

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    I started, in earnest, almost no O, and ZERO porn and masturbation, 3 years ago, and went 30 straight days.
    The first, most amazing benefit, was my soul awakening. Emotions I hadn't felt in decades came back. Sweet joy and anticipation in every moment came.
    Even the depressed moods, were NOT the same as while I was digitally getting off.
    I became a total machine athletically, and wrote some of my best ever work.
    My wit and charm was breathtaking, and I made a lot of really high caliber friends in a short time
    The most profound thing that happened though, was I MET THE LOVE OF MY LIFE.
    She was different from any girl I have ever been with. For one, very smart, vegan, career driven, high standards, GORGEOUS, and totally loving.
    I had to woo her for 2 months. If I was in a porn cycle NO WAY I WOULD HAVE GOTTEN her. I would have lost patience, and rubbed one out, and never had the energy and drive to get her.
    I've since broken up with her, but we lasted almost 3 years.
    And I suspect that if I had not taken porn back up, i either would have met someone profound immediately after, or been able to work out our issues.
    I begin today! To commit once again, and this time forever, to renouncing porn :) I can answer any questions, as I remember the 30 days as if it were yesterday, and it was NOT easy, but easily the best possible self improvement move I have ever made.
    Exercise and eating right a close second.
     
    Last edited: Feb 18, 2016
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  2. cud

    cud Fapstronaut

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    I like your positive attitude - i guess better than bad attitude, right?

    So basically you say that you got "superpower" in 30days 3 years ago, do i understand it right?
     
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  3. shutdown66

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    great post man, same situation for me, its time for us to reclaim our lives back!!!
     
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  4. rocky2j9

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    I also broke up with her lately, feeling the empty loneliness, let's fight it together!
     
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  5. cud

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    I guess it has connected us together :D

    And we are about to rise! From ashes of course!
     
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  6. Bartman

    Bartman New Fapstronaut

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    thank you cud like the pheonix bro!!,thank you shutdown66 and rocky, let me clarify for you cud :)
    I did this for the full 30 days 3 years ago, but have gone 2 to 3 week stretches while single in between.
    While those benefits are also profound, something happens about the third week, that is completely unexplainable by words. It is like dying and going to "heaven".
    It is just a profoundly different emotional minds cape, where life feels like an adventure, and that people are there to support you. Even competing feels light hearted. It might be hormones, or testosterone, but I truly believe it is also spiritual. In other words, it's damaging to watch other men screw women, and get off to it.
    I ask myself this, how would I feel if I watched my buddy pleasure his girl and get off to it?
    Now how would I feel if I did this EVERY DAY for years?
    Well, thats what we've been doing. But thankfully, it was digital, so we didn't really. ;)
    But my soul reawakened and I faced a deep dread and shame and overcame it.
    I can;t wait to do it permanently! On day 2!!!
     
  7. cud

    cud Fapstronaut

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    I guess, my progress is slower than ussual. With everything. Cause on my journey I have been learning so many things!!!

    BUt one things - lately - is pretty weird for me. The feeling of myself! I´ve stopped to behave only on my mind and I listen to my heart - and it feels so fucking huge. Like tiny thing today. I screw up a thing - it was during a game. Friend of mine was screaming at me - year ago I would feel ashamed and let him do it - today, I just felt:" so what, I screw up" and give him clear signal that I dont a give a shit. First time in my life a felt like something bigger was speaking instead of my scary mind. It was wonderful - sounds crazy but it was so fuckign great. I feel like on the way I am more and more connected with my soul with my higher self. Few months ago I wouldnt ever said this....

    Keep going brothers, the whole thing is amazing. I dont whether it is placebo or what but I feel much better then doing FAP....
     
  8. Bartman

    Bartman New Fapstronaut

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    That's EXACTLY what I'm talking about :) keep it up, everyone's progress occurrs at a different rate, but the end result is the same, freedom and joy :)
     
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